Real Life Stalker

My blog is infested with stalkers. Who else would find my blog? I want to attract right audiences, but it seems that it’s the other way around. I am considering whether to stop blogging, find another medium or to close this blog forever. Most are harmless, but there are others who‘s terribly dangerous. Nakikiusyoso. Yan ang pinoy. They don’t give peace and most of all “respect”. The greatest bane in my life.

They should be minding their own business now but they still attach themselves to other people. Sometimes I wonder whether they’re just ill or a psychopath. They can’t sense or just being stupid to sense. They do mess, mess the lives of others. For me, they’re not happy with their lives. They’re not contented so they seek attention from others. They’re maniac too. They need medical help with psychologists.

It will give me no choice but to close this blog soon.

Setting Aside.

I cannot count how many times I tried to construct this post. I made, I lost and some only lingered and vanished in my thoughts. I don’t want to admit to myself that I was hurt in some way. I am strong and I must. Those feelings have no place in my life. When it’s not important with some people, why should I too?

I want to bring the agony to an end. That thing slowly pierces me into what? Then I’ll simply just close my eyes and make a deaf ear. I feel so drained. I’m so tired. Can’t you feel it?

Before I sleep and still when I woke up, I can’t escape the mockery. Maybe I just don’t deserve things. It will never happen. The hard part is shutting up the taunts I alone can hear. A whisper in the ear of a living nightmare.

I need to unwind for a while. And I’m so numb…. yet brittle.

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I wish monthsary doesn’t exist or that there are other ways of saying it instead of “happy monthsary.” The one who invented monthsary is the most selfish person in the world.

Ako ay Nagbalik

"Ito yung pag ibig na hinihintay at biglang dumating. Dito mo naramdaman at natutunan kung paano magmahal. Ramdam mung tunay. Ramdam mong totoo. Hindi lang nag eexist sa imahinasyon, kundi nangyari sa totoong buhay. Ito yung pinakamasarap na feeling, ito rin yung pinakamasakit at pinakamahirap kalimutan. Nandiyan na napaluha ka. Ok lang yan, nagmahal ka naman ng tunay.

Wala na..."

These were in my thoughts when I was listening to the song earlier. There are certain songs that remind us of something, a stir in emotion. Then nagsawa din ako after…  And the remnants are gone.

...with MS Access

It sucks I know, since I lost my FD it's like I lost a bit of myself too. Anyways, I might cheat with my blog by posting backward again. So far, I’m having a head ache with access. What the heck is happening with this? It keeps on popping.

I watched it a number of times, thought of possibilities, looked at the spelling very well. Can it be that they left some instruction unsaid so not to make things easy (like some other people’s work). And then I heard it…

It was an instant hilariousness, as if I was mad and insane and I can’t get around without a laugh on myself. That’s what problem solving is…

But admit it, not being able to find answer is excruciating. It’s hard to accept whenever a why is unanswered. Maybe I’ll try to do more of simple problem solving. Not some big one, I might get very pissed off.

Anyway, this is the tutorial I was watching and my error was it didn't occur to me to type "forms" instead of "form".