There will always be a child within us...
I've been gone. And the culprit, as usual, was my sleeping habit.
I sleep like I a sick person though I wish it’s far from truth.
It was a big weekend except the fact that I wasted the following
weekdays. My first baby was born. It is square headed like me. My impression will follow later.
I have everything now, everything that I needed. Yet, I still
haven’t done the real leap. I know purchasing the device was already a step, but
the real game is just about to begin.
My body is a bit deprived with happy chemicals and soon I might
even forget how to really smile. Just this year, someone made me realize I don't
even laugh. When did I actually stop laughing? I asked myself. It felt like part
of me died and I only just realize my loss.
Also, this transition in life is turning me into emotionless
human being. I don't want to be like this. I want happiness to surround every corner
of my life. Back when I was young, I already had this confusion from people's behavior
like there's something that makes them always unhappy and unsatisfied. And since
I was just a child, I wonder what's wrong. I'm already idealistic back then. Life
can be a fairy tale yet older people hold back.
Being older now, I learned the importance of those precious years
for a child. I believe that children should have a beautiful childhood experience
for they will bring those memories forever.
"I don't wanna be like that..." my child within me
will say that. But I am here now, my turn. To make a difference? Let's see. I'll
pray not to lose track.
For my little sissy, I hope she'll enjoy life. I wish this particular
person will not damage her life... And also
I wish I can be a good and a model sister to her.
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