“The
more it is insisted, the more I withdrew to change things.”
Living with someone’s expectations is no
joke. I’m used into not minding them until I cannot take it any longer. It’s
too much. I despise hypocrite people minding other person’s business when in
reality they’re not in the right place to say such things. I wish they look
into their own flaws first.
I’m getting oversensitive lately,
especially when I am surrounded with people whose character I despise so much.
It’s like they have their own gravitational pull, like a black hole. You’ll be
crushed when you are not strong enough. Pretentions, paranoia and insecurities.
Worst, the threaten ego can do damage. Let’s just wish it’s doesn’t makes its
way into physical harm.
“People
are curious. They bark.”
Is it that hard to give kindness and
genuine concern? Turning our hero into an antagonist is scarier as always
portrayed into stories. Being rotten is contagious; why not pass goodness
instead of it? Criticisms are destructive. It is depressing when it’s too much.
The weight of being unaccepted is heavy.
Yet, if
we don’t shape up, soon we will be forced out. Isn’t it?
I know I’m over reacting that time. But it
was close to unlocking some nightmare that has long been ignored. And if you
know how it feels when it’s frightening, you wanted to scream. It really sucks
when someone is complementing incorrectly especially if you know yourself it’s
the opposite. It doesn’t cheer the person, it sounds sarcastic.
“An
aristocrat should dress as befits his position. If he does not, he is showing
contempt for others.” -Vampire Diaries. The Awakening
When someone expects you to be perfect and
always beautiful…
So:
I need to calm down and yes, try to be
beautiful…
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