“Happiness
is like a candle in the darkness.” Something I
heard this during the mass
It was becoming a less inspiring weekends. I’m
having a tough time too. It’s like I wanted to quit but luckily there are times
that I can manage to divert myself. I'm afraid I’ll forget my sanity, wallow
into darkness and make selfish decisions that are both destructive.
Sometimes I can't understand. It’s just
that I wanted to know and to choose the alternative is corruptive. However I
learned that I did lack there in some ways. I wasn’t able to provide this
imperturbable understanding the time I started to feel the drifting apart of
our two collided worlds. But hey, I didn't miss it. I sensed it yet was unable
to figure. That bothered me. All I knew is that something has changed.
I just don’t want to get too tired and
helpless...
Anyway, I’m going off topic.
I went to church to pray for this person.
This is the first time I did it. Maybe my last mass before this was the unsuccessful
mass together. Though uninvited, I still went alone. I prayed for his soul to
be happy especially these distressing days.
I felt an undeniably fulfilling feeling of
tenderness after.
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When I went to adoration chapel for the
hope of finding the ambiance my soul wanted to feel…
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